Invisible

Complication

I wouldn’t want the things to turn out like this, what a mess…Everything is out of control. I know what to do but I keep doing it wrong.. I shouldn’t be forgiven!! Sorry for hurting you to the deep. Despicable me! How would you react and how shall I give the response? Things cannot be undone, take it, bear with it and let it go.. Just as simple as that? I doubt that..No turning point for me? I am a mean girl that nobody wants. Sorry that I love you.

Extract some time from my pack schedule to shift myself to here…I’m here again! Another busy study week is awaiting me. MUET and PM presentation are both fell on tomorrow, I have to speak duo languages, BM and BI in a proficient way. Someone teaches me how to do??!!! I can’t cope with it, I’m not a very language talented person…Have to try hard and practice hard to accomplish it perfectly! Here COME with the problem again, lazy is always my weakness. Thousands words wanted to say..just the matter of time…and DELAY NO MORE!! 

I shouldn’t be here. Rushing for my report and I’ve got a test by tomorrow. I feel stress, it makes me lost my direction. I burst into tears when my dear phoned me. I was acting all this times. One of my friends used ‘happy go lucky’ to describe me this morning, maybe I were, but I’m not. I was dragging things and causing current situation happened on me. After all, I’m the cause of the problem. I am a problem.

Motivation

If I’d updated the blog at all times, and it would be all about the motivation things!

Ever since I started this trimester, I’d missed a few classes. It is week 4 now, today is the first day I attended Friday’s classes! And I haven’t attended any class on Monday and Tuesday! Believe your eyes, and believe what I have written, you’re not seeing wrong! Maybe you would think that ‘How could it be? You could be barred from the final exam, the worst consequence.’ Let’s just put the rules and regulations topic aside, it is all about the DISCIPLINE and KNOWLEDGE.

I paid school fees and I’d made the further study decision, all the hardships are gone through just to make me here, to get a better degree and eventually to get a better job. My dad, my mom and my family members, they possessed a high expectation on me. I’m not complaining how stress am I now, to be honestly, I’m not kind of grumble person. It’s just the feeling of guilty is running through my head, I admit it. The feeling is not good especially when you feel sorry…

Yet the worst feeling is you could do nothing when you felt sorry, fortunately, I have not reached that level! Something to be done to vanish the guilty. You can’t just sit around and wait for something to be happened. No free lunch in this world, well said. No pain no gain, you put effort for something then you will get something in return, regardless of good or bad. Treat the good as a gift and treat the bad as a lesson, life experience is made up of out of these.

All I have to do is do whatever I need to do. A formal presentation is held by next Monday and our group haven’t come out with a proper plan, now what I need to do is, WORK IT OUT!!